So I went to my first game at the new Yankee Stadium today. A few weeks ago, I took the tour and got to visit the clubhouse and sit in the dugout, which was awesome. I have pics. When I get them, I will load them here.

Anyway, as soon as I got there, the first song I heard playing over the stadium speakers was Vertigo. That got me so pumped.

After I entered the stadium, I went down to as close to the field as the players were taking batting practice. There was this...

I was watching the Miss Sarajevo video for the first time in a long time yesterday morning. In the beginning of the video, you see Princess Diana jump out of a car, very happy, and coming over to embrace and kiss Luciano Pavarotti on the cheek. They were both so genuinely happy to see other. And when I saw that, I was so struck by the fact that they are both no longer alive. These two people have touched so many lives and it's so sad that they are no longer with us. It just puts things in perspective...

I will be 35 soon and I still have never had a girlfriend. I can't take this anymore. Everyday, a part of me wants to hold on to hope. But I just have to face reality and just accept the fact that it will never happen. I mean, I am almost 35. But I also feel utterly ashamed. I don't even want to face my extended family anymore. They have to think I am a loser, for sure. I don't blame them. I am. There is no way any woman would like me. I am downright ugly. Because I am ugly, women don't have any...

I am 34 and still a virgin. I feel utterly ashamed. This never bothered me, but now it does a lot. I feel like a complete loser. I am a loser. I want to cry. I have been hearing about statistics of how 97 percent of all people have lost their virginity before marriage. But what really got me was that 93 percent of all people lost their virginity before the age of 30. Are you kidding me? That means that I am one of seven out of 100 people who are still a virgin. I know I shouldn't be ashamed, but...

A few months ago I weighed 210 pounds. I used to be as high as 230. Now, I am down to 185 pounds. I am 6 feet tall and I checked the Body Mass Index, which says that I am now "normal" and not "overweight." For 72 inches tall, the BMI says that 185 pounds or lighter is normal. A lot of people have told me that I have lost weight, which has boosted my self-esteem, which was non-existant.

Here's what I have done for the past few months:
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I just came back from the Yankee game vs. the Oakland A's. What an ugly game. It was 8-0 and Pettitte couldn't even last two innings. It was a spur of the moment thing going to today's game. This morning, I thought my sister and her family were going to come over and visit and they changed plans. She called and said her in-laws were coming to visit. It was 9:30 a.m. Since I didn;t want to be bored all day, I decided to go the Yankee game on my own. I kind of surprised myself for doing such an impulsive...

I am officially done with women and worrying about whether women like me or not. Since I am ugly, there's no sense worrying about whether I will ever get a girlfriend. I believe that looks are the most important thing in life. I have a big nose, a skinny face, a long neck and balding really bad. So I have to accept the fact that I will be alone for the rest of my life. I have been worrying so much about this for so long. It's time to just ACCEPT that women just won't like me. Period. So I have to...

My New Year's Resolution is to feel better about myself. For the past few days, I have come to realize that I want to get better and I want to feel better about myself. I want to keep a positive attitude and not worry about what I look like. If I have a positive attitude, smile, and just have a cheery attitude, then I think people will see that and won't care about what I look like. I just want to be happy. Life is too short. I know that sounds so cliche, but it's true. I am hoping that if I have...

i am fucking ugly. its not getting better. i cant stand to look at me. with the holidays, its not getting better. i had a big fight with my mother, about how fucking ugly i am. i had a talk with a coworker yesterday. she was looking at a magazine with hot guys and i made a comment that girls want guys like that, not ugly guys like me. then she starts to tell me that that is not true and i got into a friendly argument with her. then i start saying that we live in a superficial world and if people...

I was suprised to get a reply from the advice column. This was it:

First and foremost, we urge you to get counseling as soon as practical to help boost your self-esteem. What you see as "ugly," another person--preferably female--might find interesting or unique. Looks are not everything in life; personality and sense of humor are very important to most women. When you're down on yourself, as you obviously are, women can sense it and will keep their distance. However,...

I just submitted this to an advice column:

"question : I am 32. I have never had a girlfriend and am still a virgin. I have a big nose, skinny face and losing my hair. Because I am downright ugly, women do not like me. Looks are the most important thing to everyone. But is there any hope for me? How can I get women to like me despite being so ugly-looking? I am convinced all women like good-looking men. They don't like men who are balding, which I am. I am starting to believe...

Today was not a good day. For the past few days, I have been so depressed, and it's all because I am ugly. I am so ugly. The other night, I walk into the kitchen. My mother was also there. I was so depressed and angry and frustrated. All of sudden, I start talking to myself about what a fucking loser I am; I am so ugly; girls don't like me cause I am ugly; and my mother starts to yell at me and tells me, no I am not ugly, stop saying that, no, you're not a loser; you need to talk to people, be friendly,...

I was at my sister and her family's house for Christmas. We were watching the video for my niece's chistening a few weeks ago and whenever I saw myself in the video I felt sad for looking for ugly looking. I felt so depressed again. My sister and brother in law sensed it and were trying to cheer me up, but it didn't work. Then, as soon as I got home and logged onto the computer, I saw that MSN had U2's OOTS video, which I didn't see. So I downloaded the video and it really struck home. For the past...

I couldn't sleep last night. I think I got only three hours sleep. I hate when I feel like this. I was in the bathroom last night, looking at myself and thinking, "God, I am so ugly." I can't take this anymore. It's been a rough week. I really want to kill myself. I hate feeling like this. I need help. Why am I a loser? I don't talk to people because I feel so ashamed of myself. I am a downright loser. I am ugly, still live at home, work two jobs but don't make any money, never...

I am listening to Pop and I can't for the life of me understand why U2 hasn't played much Pop songs on the tour.

Discoteque, Mofo, Last Night on Earth, Gone, Please, If you wear that Velvet Dress..

These songs would sound incredible on the tour.
I love all the songs on the tour. But common, please, please add these songs to the tour. So what the setlist would be 30 songs long. The show will definitely be more awesome. It's already awesome.

Why...