Im so bored!

for 3 days ive been walking around the house bored as hell

I need to get out...but where? who with? what will we do?

I need a holiday some where completly different.

but yet again i have no more money + im not old enough to travel by myself...and thats what i really need to be alone some where different

Im bored with all my family & friends at the moment, not in a bad way its just that we have done...

so new yr wasnt that bad i stayed over at hollys place

she had a friend come over & thankgod i knew her aswell we went to primary 2gether (What a blast form the past!)

we went down to the park & did some random things

We were in and out of the house all night we stole some wiskey
and ran off with it down to the oval it wasnt that nice i dont think i will drink that again

and then we stole some Vodka Milkshakes...

yep its almost new yr

im not really looking forward to it

but it should be better then this yr.

i can only name 3 good things that happened

1. First U2 concert
2. Becoming friends with Holly
3. Becoming closer friends with Erin

yeah.....boring year.......besides thoes 3 things


new years resolutions:
1. decide what the hell i want to do with my life
2. Dye my hair ...

well its boxing day....i got up at 2pm

i cant believe xmas is over

it came around so fast and now its gone so fast

i got some lovely gifts

a new camera, Kylie Minogue purfume, a dvd player for my room, U2 by U2, U218 singles dvd, heaps of jewllery ( ) a new bag + many more things

i spent the whole day with only 3 hours sleep (if that)

after going to midnight mass, i couldnt sleep when i got...

tonight im going to midnight mass for the first time in my whole entire 14 years on this earth

i know understand and respect why we have xmas

ive come to know that its not about all the gifts its about the birth of jesus

and spending time with your family, in the past weeks i havent been all that nice to my family (see other entries)

and now im going to change...form now on im going to be as nice as i can to everyone i meet
...

i went to the ortho 2day and got my expander looked at

the girls took photo's of how my mouth looks now & then i sat there for 15-20 mins just waiting for the Dr. to come in

he looked at it & turned my expander 4 or 5 times

what they dont know is that pushing apart ur jaw HURTS!!!

mum asks if it hurts when she turns it...OF COURSE IT FUCKING HURTS, YOUR RIPPING APART MY JAW!!!

anyways its all over for another...

Its crazy

its ment to be summer and the other day it was 19 degress

and the next day its 29

WTF????

And in Queensland they are having really heavy hail, and in Victoria its bushfires

maybe sydney might get a white christmas with all the strange things thats going on

they say the weather is coming in from Asia

but I think its one of the many horrible affects of global warming

there is no frost and there is no snow, christmas in Australia's hot, cold and frosty what its not


Yes its almost here YAY!!!

i was watching the carols last night on T.V & i never noticed how we dont sing Aussie xmas songs

its always things about snow & snowmen aswell as all the rest

so from now on im only gonna sing Aussie ones


anyways holly slept over on friday & saturday night...

My family are very well known at Michael Hills (jewellery shop)

And we all know the staff there

The other day mum got asked by the manger Tim if i wanted some part time work during the christmas holidays

I told mum i didnt want to do it coz it was in the holidays

but now im starting to think about it

but Im still not sure.....

Its affecting me heaps im so depressed over it

here's the story:

my mum & dad have been seperated for 5 yrs now

my nan (mum's mum) has it in for my dad

she will bag him out any chance she can

over that 5 yrs my dad has done some silly things that have hurt me & my lil sis

but he has changed now, i will come home & tell my mum & nan things like the house wasnt clean or there...

I still do it

I hate myself at times

I hate all the bitching that goes on & yet i still do it, i dont mean it to come out like that but when i think about wat ive said i feel horrible

eg: my mate is driving me up the wall at the moment she is doing it to all of us

i was on the phone to holly & we were talking about her, at the time i didnt think i was bitching about just that it had to be said

&...

my mum is such a loser

she went to my sisters xmas concert at skool & i was leeft all alone in the house coz nan & granda went aswell

i cant believe she feel for, "im tired, im gonna go to bed" thing at 5:00pm

once they have left i got out of bed, and the hunt for the xmas pressies started

yes i know its wrong, but im a kid im meant to do stuff lyk this

anyways;

i went to...

Yet again the other day i had a"what are u going to do when u leave school" talk with my mum in the car

my Nan was in the car aswell

i told mum that im really thinking about getting a deegree in political science when i leave skool

And guess what?

Both nan & mum laughed at me...

this wasnt a laugh when u make a joke this was the type of laugh that makes u feel horrible
the type of laugh...

my random write up of the song

i have wrote how i felt at that time and what i thought of the songs performance!




City Of Blinding Lights- OMG!!!! Its starting, where’s Bono? I cant see him, mum points out where he is and I had tears running down my face, no idea why. Maybe because its just that one moment when you realizes the person you admire a lot is in your sight.

Vertigo / She Loves You (snippet)- Whooooo! Hello Hello,...

oh this fight between my friends is crazy we are all gonna turn against each other soon and then all of us will have no one

ive had a shity arse day

we were doing fractions in maths and i was fine until the teacher moved me and told me not to use the calclator (sp?)

she tryed to explain it to me 2 times and i know i can do these but today i couldnt


then i went into a really shity mood for some reason...i still have the shits....but...