Feeling Blue
Posted 12-24-2005 at 10:07 AM by joerags
I couldn't sleep last night. I think I got only three hours sleep. I hate when I feel like this. I was in the bathroom last night, looking at myself and thinking, "God, I am so ugly." I can't take this anymore. It's been a rough week. I really want to kill myself. I hate feeling like this. I need help. Why am I a loser? I don't talk to people because I feel so ashamed of myself. I am a downright loser. I am ugly, still live at home, work two jobs but don't make any money, never had a girlfriend, still a virgin. This hurts so much. I wish I can just go to sleep and never wake up and end this pain. Where is my life going? Why continue living? I feel like such a woos for not ending my life. I am a coward. Why can't I just drive off into a river and just end it. I really want to get better, but it's hard. This depression comes and goes and when it comes, it hurts so much. I'm starting to get a headache. I need sleep.
Total Comments 5
Comments
-
I wish there were words to make you feel better. Are you talking to anyone about how you feel? Please do.
I hate seeing you like this. It makes me upset. If you need to talk, please pm me ok? :hug:
Please hang in there.
Posted 12-24-2005 at 10:38 AM by U2Girl1978
-
I am so sorry that you are feeling so sad. Please know that there are people here who care about you. :hug:Posted 12-24-2005 at 12:16 PM by Diane L -
Looks are not everything!! And please dont call yourself a loser. You seem like a really nice guy.
:hug:Posted 12-24-2005 at 03:11 PM by Sicy -
You are the only one who can ask for help - you need to and there is no shame in that. I have recently experienced the death of a friend by suicide - no one had a clue how bad she was feeling. Please let someone know how you are feeling. I was ashamed when I was feeling the same way and didn't know how to ask for help. I ended up making an appointment with my doctor and gave the reason as difficulty sleeping (which was true). This will cause a good doctor to ask more about your everyday life and if you are honest, they will be able to diagnose your depression and help you - but there is a good chance that things will get worse rather than better the longer you wait...Posted 12-24-2005 at 09:21 PM by bonosloveslave -
I am so sorry that you are feeling this way. :( I hope you will find someone to talk to, but know that you have lots of friends here who care about you! :hug:Posted 12-24-2005 at 09:43 PM by Mrs. Edge
