Nerves and moves and colds and "what do you bring to the table?"

Hey everyone (anyone is more appropriate, actually)...

I'll do my best to be brief here.

I'm a tad nervous right now, because it is 6:30pm and my work day is almost over, and so it just dawned on me that I have 2 interviews tomorrow. One with a VP of recruiting in HR, the other with the President of the Network I'm trying to get a job with....this is for the Chicago gig I mentioned in what I think was my previous journal entry.

I'm dealing from strength here, in that I'm currently gainfully employed and not unhappy with my job. In fact, a few things have happened lately that could bode well for me should I elect to remain here, or should I not get the new gig and be forced to remain here for now. So, since either way, I draw a paycheck from the same parent company, why be nervous?

Well, first of all, even though I've conducted well over 200 interviews over the past 12 years, I've not been on a formal interview since I was 24. So, that's a long time to go without being on the other side of the table. I hope I react well to some of the standard bullshit questions I try to avoid asking candidates for jobs in my department.

But, more importantly, this is a big deal. If I get the job, my life totally changes....I start over at a new network, get a new boss who knows very little about me....and I move to a new city. All of those prospects excite me, but, it's amazing how two little meetings are going to potentially impact my life, in a very powerful way.

So, I'm trying not to put too much pressure on myself, because that's not productive, and there should be no pressure....whatever happens will happen. But, it's easier said than done, of course.

Oh, lastly, I'm coming down with a nasty cold, so, that shit better not be too bad tomorrow...sneezing and all, no big deal, but my head better not be all fogged up. I'd like to be at my best tomorrow.

And, so, that's where I'm at for tomorrow. I'd ask you to wish me good luck, but, this aint about luck, it's about who I am and what I've accomplished and what I can bring to these people....and it's also about who I am not...because if my potential future boss is looking for someone with a different skill set, I am not lying to get a job. You can wish me good luck anyway, though.

Besides that:

Been posting on this site like a fucking madman lately. I got ruined over the Xmas-NYE stretch...got suckered into venturing into a certain thread and I've barely left since.

Been listening to a lot of music that's new to me. Been enjoying that. Mute Math, Muse, Kasabian and Snow Patrol are some of the stuff I've listened to and liked.

Currently reading Soldier of Sidon by Gene Wolfe. If you at all like Sci-Fi or Fantasy...and I mean well written stuff in the genres, not watered down "I have a laser!!" crap, or 4th generation Tolkien stuff....then check Gene Wolfe out. Ask me which books to start with, if you're interested.

Looking forward to the Super Bowl....the AFC CHampionship game was insanely riveting, hoping the SB can be 1/2 as good as that game was. Pitchers and catchers report kind of soon!

Got myself an Xbox 360 (cos I'm 36, the #'s match up, it was fated) and I probably like it a little too much. Fun to play late at night.

Which leads me to...yes, still currently single, hence me thinking playing video games at 12am is a positive development. But to be fair, I'm not remotely trying to meet anyone, as I could be moving.

I think that's about it. I'm hoping to sleep decently tonight as last night was insomnia night for me....hoping to just relax and trust that I'll interview well and get the job....and if not, need to allow myself to feel disappointment, but also must not forget all the things I do have, as opposed to the latest thing I don't have.

I'll write a quick haiku about it, cos I have mad skillz:

Man I hope I sleep
Cos I have an interview
Tomorrow morning

That sucked. I'll try another, this will be off topic but better:

Bow down before me
You loathsome pack of mortals
I reign supreme here

That may or may not have sucked, but it seemed a tad...aggressive, and maybe not very warm.

One last try:

I am not crazy
and yet you claim that I am
what a nice white coat

So......yeah.

Sigh.

As per usual, if you read this all, you're probably very bored but I also appreciate it....and feel free to toss in a comment, be it negative or positive, love the feedback.

Bye.