Stuck in a moment....
Posted 02-03-2008 at 04:24 PM by WithOrWithOutE
For the past weeks...months...maybe even a year..I've been struggling to find out where I belong. With work, relationships, just life in general. So far I have a lot of questions and not that many answers. I thought that training to be a Reiki practitioner would give me something to be proud of. Something I could call my own, and it's been good..but it's also been the hardest thing I've ever done.
And now I'm a level two but it doesn't seem to matter to anyone. I can't make money at it because half of the world doesn't even know what the hell it is. I've tried to find work everywhere else because I feel worthless that i don't make money but no one will hire me either because I have no experience or because I'm painfully shy..or who knows the real reasons. The whole world seems to think that what you do and how much money you make decides what kind of a person you are. Is this true or is it just me?
Anyway, I'm left with this...I'm an out of work 20 year old Reiki practitioner who lives with my parents, has hardly any friends, a non existent love life, brings no money into the house and feels worthless because of it...and now on top of it all, I have raging cramps and feel like I'm being a bitch to everyone....yeah so maybe whoever is reading this should just ignore it. Half the time I don't know if what I'm feeling is real or brought on by damn hormones. UGH
~Amber
And now I'm a level two but it doesn't seem to matter to anyone. I can't make money at it because half of the world doesn't even know what the hell it is. I've tried to find work everywhere else because I feel worthless that i don't make money but no one will hire me either because I have no experience or because I'm painfully shy..or who knows the real reasons. The whole world seems to think that what you do and how much money you make decides what kind of a person you are. Is this true or is it just me?
Anyway, I'm left with this...I'm an out of work 20 year old Reiki practitioner who lives with my parents, has hardly any friends, a non existent love life, brings no money into the house and feels worthless because of it...and now on top of it all, I have raging cramps and feel like I'm being a bitch to everyone....yeah so maybe whoever is reading this should just ignore it. Half the time I don't know if what I'm feeling is real or brought on by damn hormones. UGH
~Amber
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reiki, and many other complimentary and alternative medicines are still growing. but that isn't necessarily a bad thing. if i were you i'd contact some of the people you trained with at the institution you went to to earn the certification. they have loads of contacts and perhaps they can help you out? good luck!Posted 02-03-2008 at 05:36 PM by unico
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the question is, do you want to do this or is did you pick it up b/c your mom does and youre just trying to please everyone else?
Maybe you could try community college if you dont want to go to a regular one. I mean youre a great writer maybe you could do something with that? And try to apply to as many places as possible....esp. food places =X
I really think you have to do something for yourself and dont think about pleasing others.
Posted 02-03-2008 at 08:22 PM by EdgeIsTooSexy 
