EdgeVox

My spirit feels like ash
Blow me a kiss and I'll disintegrate
I'd give anything to know what you're thinking,
To know how you really feel about me,
Do you really think I'm going to pull through?
How much faith are you prepared to lose?
God I wish I'd never known you..
I was much more comfortable being miserable
I'm so fucking disillusioned with my life...
I hope it get's better...it fucking better..

zooropamanda

you have a very raw style edgevox

very open and honest..I like it

Achtung_Bebe

Hey EdgeVox your stuff is really bare and soul searching--I'm your number one fan

Seriously I like it put this stuff together and I guess you've gotten yourself inside the mind of EdgeVox hehe

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"If I am close to the music, and you are close to the music, we are close to each other." -Bono

Achtung_Bebe

I thought it was time I brought the rawest thread back to the top

EdgeVox, did you ever get my reply??? I sent it two times now, and if you still haven't, then I may need to break stuff.

BTW, got anything more to write?

EdgeVox

I bet it gives you a thrill to make me cry,
You do it just to see if you can
I never thought you'd turn on me
I knew everyone else would...but not you
You're lost to me
Even if I wanted to forgive you...
A slave to my self-doubt and paranoia
My dedication to my flaws equaled only by my love for you
Should I have seen it coming?
You're lost to me
I wish things were different
Fuck my stubborn pride
Did it matter that I got along with your family?
This is so stupid....You're so stupid......I'm so fucking stupid.

EdgeVox

I miss you
I need you
I question you
I hate you
I seethe
I control you
I love you
I fear you
I made you
I touch you
I cared
I lied too
I killed you
I bleed you
I breathe you
I kiss you
I wake you
I will do
I need to
endure you
I fuck you
I think you
I am you

Achtung_Bebe

EdgeVox, This is very good! I knew you wouldn't let us down with another piece of your soul--please write more nonsensical bits of poetry in the future

~your #1 fan

EdgeVox

Grind my teeth
Hold my hand
Cross my fingers
Hope for the best
I wish you only love
If you find someone better
Eyes in exchange for jealousy
I'll never forget you
I'll always be there

EdgeVox

it's always a joy to hear your voice
voice full of regret
I'm endlessly apologetic
I never meant to hurt you
Support is lost in the transmission
Jealousy took it's place all too easily
You're my pillar of faith
My darling, my church
I don't have God in my life
You're my religion
I believe in you
Nothing can ever fill the hole in my heart
It's only whole when you're by my side
It's you and I versus the world
My candle in a time of darkness
The light struggling against the all too familiar blackness
The only way is through you
Please allow safe passage
Through your good intentions
I love you
Is that no longer enough
Like a piece of broken glass
Your absence pierces my soul
I mean you the best
I intend only good
You'll never find the foundation of my sorrow
Life without you is no life at all
Your optismism is contagious
Like a plague only heaven-sent
In dreams, we kiss eternally
In life I hurt you
Without your love,
I'm colorblind
I need you to see
To see the rainbow of life at my disposition
I wish you the best......I wish you fortune
I hope I can still make you smile
You're everything to me
A bed without your presence
I need you to make it sacred
Our altar of hope
What you touch becomes light
I'd follow you and protect you
All you'd need is ask.......

Achtung_Bebe

Wow I love this last one you posted EdgeVox. This bit right here stood out to me... I love the line "Like a plague only heaven-sent". You're a true poet!

~#1 fan

EdgeVox

Is infatuation really a bad thing?
Am I trite for indulging in a triviality?
I look at you from far away and marvel,
I hear your laugh and act as if I knew what you were laughing at,
I can't get you out of my mind,
Like a lingering smile lost in a mind full of troubles,
Sincerity, both curse and blessing,
Listless and waning in a corrupt world,
Yet fierce in times of hypocrisy,
Doubt, like my subconscious' shadow,
I thought it'd be easier,
It's not like this in the movies,
Where's my last minute plot twist?
Where's my kiss in the rain?
Where's my fucking happy ending?...

Achtung_Bebe

This whole thing is gorgeous... and it's like you read my mind.

The ending lines are brilliant.

~#1 fan

EdgeVox

If there's anything a child never dreams of,
It's to be a fucking hypocrite,
Which makes you wonder..
What could've possibly have gone wrong for more than half the people on this planet,
I'm not cynical...I'm just pissed
Misunderstood, Abortion, Parenthood
Where's my state of grace
I miss my faith
My profound love for you more than makes up for it,
If it weren't for you
I'd be dead, in spirit in faith
You're my glory
My light
I'd die to make things right
I'll always be true
For a smile I'd trade my soul
I'm not sure I believe in god,
But I'm damned sure that I believe in love
Love, such a cliched word nowadays
It's sucha great feeling when you say it,
And truly feel it
See my sorrows burn
Set my spirit free
Take my hand
Know that I'll never let you go
Know that I'll die before I let any harm befall you,
All is well.....
I'm a terrible liar

EdgeVox

I meant well
I wanted love
I was at your mercy
Needless to say
You thought otherwise
You made yourself clear
Crystal,
Shrapnel in my eyes
Can't see through the pain
Closing them means less hurt
My eyes are wide open
Pain for truth
Don't know who I'm kissing anymore
I think I'm with you out of pure nostalgia
The sharpest blade resides in scorn
Sincerity the weakest armor
I can't justify my sadness
I can't justify my stupidity
I can justify my loyalty
She's not listening...
Maybe she never was

EdgeVox

everything's broken