EdgeVox

"He meant nothing to me", she laughed
Her laugh was trivial and cruel,
Apparently this short-lived liason
was of much more signifigance to me

I'm not sure what ached that day
my heart, my pride my wistfull hope
all in all I felt bested, defeated and mournful of the love that was and could've been once again.....

Beset by jealousy
Conquered by insecurities,
is there any way out?

EdgeVox

it's 452 am on tuesday august 27 and I'm wondering whether or not to kill myself
is this a call for attention
is this any other cliched situation
if I had any balls I would've done it by now
am I a coward or a rational human being
what's going on with me

I have half my brain telling me to do it
what the fuck is that about
I'm in disbelief
what the fuck is going on
am I that far out of control
am I that far gone
am I a cautionary tale
..............I wonder
I wonder

where this much disillusionment can augment
I'm not a religious person
Jesus, help me
Jesus, help me
penetrate my cynical fascade
please

am I out of options
am I out of ways out
metaphysical alley
please
show me some sort of trancsedence
please
will you miss me or will I become yet another lost cause
catch me
catch me
otherwise see you on my way down,
don't give a shit anymore
don't care
catch me
catch me
I'm ok
I'm ok
where's my favorite brick wall?

EdgeVox

Your insignifgant demeanor
Ridiculing my disposition
Summer's gone
yet I've always felt the chill
of winter
Fuck you I'm getting drunk
Gonna drink till I can't see
Maybe till I'm rid of me
You're nothing to me
I wish you were dead in a half assed way
die
I miss you
I miss you
You'll always be on my mind

EdgeVox

Our love was swept away like a cliched season,
I don't blame you for your cold cold heart,
I wish there was so much more I could've done for you,
Now there's only pain and things that could've been,
I'll always love you
I'll never forget you
You can always count on my jealousy
You'll always be on my mind

Miss you at once resenting you
Lovesick till there's no hope
Can I exist without your distant guidance?
Am I up for it?
You can hurt me til there's no sky above us,
Knowing full well that I'll forgive you til the end,
Can't help but admire your treachery,
I love you
I love you
You can always count on my naivette
You'll always be on my mind

Shady dealings with the devils of man,
I sit there with wounded eyes,
Predictable outcome, two days too late
I'll catch you
I'll catch you
Wash your dirty feet for you
And pray for your tainted soul
I can't help but love you
I love you
You can always count on my generic benevolence
You'll always be on my mind

EdgeVox

I'm so sorry for you
I wish things were different
You should all be here still
dreaming, sighing, loving, living
It's not fair, it's not right, it's not love
Wish you were here
Twenty eight hundred lost souls
I wish things were different
I wish none of this had happened

EdgeVox

Unnecessary, these thoughts of mine
I can't wait to feel your eyes again
Just sit there and breathe you in
You're lost little girl
Let me find you
I know just where to look,
Shrouded in guilt
Enthralled by misery
I know all about that place
I miss you

EdgeVox

Thought I heard your voice the other day
I was walking down a crowded street
It really is a shame
I wish it rained everyday
Sunny days make me envious
Can't wait to start over.....

EdgeVox

Situated, in my oblivious nature,
Hanging on by a thread, too thin to describe,
I wonder out loud, if I'm worth nostalgia to you,
Cliched emotions drowned by the wave of a new sorrow,
I will be born again,
I will be born anew,
Will you be there,
Will you be there to greet my melancholy soul,

I liked it better when I was new,
I miss my first day angst,
Kissing
Fucking
When did it become passe,
I'd rather die than suffer mediocrity,
Going under once again,
Sleepwalking into the sea
Giving me purpose once again,
Neptune's cloak providing solace
from the harsher storm above
I'll miss you
I'll miss the storm...

Michael Griffiths

EdgeVox,

Thank-you so much for sharing, and helping.

Michael

EdgeVox

Well I'm all out of excuses,
I'm dead anyways,
You never did feel that much,
Careless love in the air,
I wish that things were different,
I wish that things could change,
Maybe they will down the line,
Til then my soul's a tumbleweed,
Wake up wherever, don't matter to me,
I'm dead anyways,
Being blind drunk, nothing new
Whiskey fueled wisdom...or bullshit,
If only I could change before it's too late,
...don't want to,
I'll see you, christmas in our small town,
Smile, maybe buy you a drink...
And think of the better things I've done,
Doesn't really matter,
I'm dead anyways....

EdgeVox

Grey skies overhead,
I like it this way,
I like seeing the world reflect my soul,
I'm happy, isn't that funny,
I'm happy this way,
I reject any prozac-addled lifestyle,
Holden would call them "phonies",
I like the way cold rain trickles down my eyes,
Makes me feel like God empathizes,
So, once again I write hollow words,
Tumbling down the world's pathos,
I don't want to stop my fall
I can't stop now
It's too much fun....

Like O2

Yeah EdgeVox, this is the first time I've seen/read this thread. You've got some really great stuff here!

The one above is my favorite. I'm with you on every word!

Like O2

Good question, when did it happen?

EdgeVox

With your hazel indifference
And your lips of fire
You could make an angel turn
Just who do you truly love?
Skies at your feet
Stars blush
You're so fucking beautiful
I could swim in your eyes
You say you're at home in the winter
Smoke filled bars
Rain, cold as ever
You're too good for this town
You're too good for me
I love you for being out of my reach

for~

Oh...EdgeVox
I think I'm obsessed in your poems.....
I really love them very much....
I really want to use a word or more to appreciate ur work..... but I'm just kinda wordless....
I'm looking forward for more....... plz.....