EdgeVox

I'm going to post some random notes I had made, i was going to organize them into a cohesive whole, but I think random ramblings left untouched can tell you more about how I felt that day......

Where Did Our Love Go.....Went the way of casual sex
I think that you knew I was lying then and there
Is there nothing you wouldn't say to me
I'm on to you now
You'd fuck me just to shut me up
Devils rape the angels
Shoot me in the foot
Cynical Blowjob
Lying wide asleep, half alive, DOA, walking about

Let's see what y'all make of that...I think it's kinda pretentious....here's something that resembles a song...wrote it while I was hammered....ripped off the title from a gavin friday song.....I think...I'm too lazy to edit it or make it good....like I said in it's raw form you can't hide it's mediocrity...if that's the case...

Through a Cell phone I hear you crying
you know I'm still trying- to get a fix on things

It's You and Me and World War Three
You know and I know how it's going to be- we'll lose out in the end

Remember when you told me everything would turn out right
I didn't know I'd have to put up such a fight- to find my way back to the middle

I didn't mean to make you sad,
but sometimes it makes me glad
to have us both crying,
Is it so wrong to make you cry to make me happy

I didn't know it'd be this hard to stay mediocre
You wonder why I make you cry,
I don't know the answer,

This girlfriend thing is bound to be the end of me,
Stability is not for free, the price you pay is Sanity
Why won't I learn the art of compromise,
Is pride worth the prize, that sits before my eyes
I'll burn us out before we're happy

Sabotage is not my plan, I meant it when I said- I love you
I don't know where I picked up this terrible curse,
I guess self- destruction sounds attractive to me
My metaphor's sold me out, all along I've had no doubt
I would trip two feet from the finish line,
What I didn't know is that from my own feet would come the blow-that makes me fall

I need you to overlook my cons,
Which surely outweigh the pros
I need to know that you won't let me go,
I need to know that you won't leave me for a better man,
I'll be worth it, I know I can try to make you happy,
Will good laughs ever compensate for happiness
My soul in exchange for patience, not an even trade by far,
I need you to fight on my side in this war for my selfishness

It's You and Me and World War Three,
pick a side, wherever you'll be, you'll see me,
Shooting at me, both sides lose, but you'll be free
Free from my mediocrity, maybe that was the plan all along.....


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Saludos!

zooropamanda

Welcome Edgevox...

that was truly brutal, i could feel the pain in those words.

Come back and write us some more sometime

BabyGrace

welcome

that was great if not a little sad...sometimes disorganized is best

EdgeVox

here's some more nonsense..........ramblings that hint at small talk

sister tell me of your past lives
brother can you spare a dime
walk with me and burn
hold up a mirror to your own resolve
Iscariot state of mind
I demand to know the number to purgatory
kiss me because in a while it won't matter
find solace in liquid fire, that cools my soul
out of time out of life out of sight out of mind
way too arrogant to admit defeat
way to stubborn to realize that the war's over
what the fuck do you know about Jesus
is it bad to find satisfaction in self-loathing?
I seek experience, I dare pain to show me otherwise
open your eyes, you're a number and you're not capable of love
got a pocketful of nails and sawdust,
my only souvenirs from the resurrection....

EdgeVox

any other thoughts, criticisms, I don't mind really.....anyone? anyone?

foray

That's some brutally honest stuff you got there.

foray

EdgeVox

get ready
say goodbye to your loved ones
prepare for departure
you're in for some life

let me tell you about never knowing death
let me love you
let me think of you in impure ways
tell me it's alright

you'll never feel unloved again
take my hand and share my burden
you're my new life now

I can't stop shaking
am I lying to you?
I'm scared shitless
reassurance comes with pain
the only one true thing

let's laugh for all the wrong reasons
and fuck for all the right ones
take my hand and share my burden
we won't survive this trip
I'll see to that

Bacchus

Bridge: no you can't take it
no you can't take it
no you can't take that away from me
no you can't take it
no you can't take it
no you can't take that away from me

head like a hole.
black as your soul.
i'd rather die than give you control.
head like a hole.
black as your soul.
i'd rather die than give you control.

God money, you got the curency we need, give
it all, take it from me, make sure you spit
into that deep black hole of a garbage can
you hold so dear;

you just spit out some of the most beautiful tears i've ever felt, thank you EdgeVox, you rock!!! Walk away, walk away, i will follow!!



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The heart that is soonest awake to the flowers is always the first to be touched by the thorns.
Thomas Moore, 1779–1852

EdgeVox

Bacchus, you made my day, I don't even know how to categorize my writing....I'm comfortable with ramblings because there's no structure or prose...I appreciate all the kind words....and I welcome any criticism....to be honest I check this page everyday hoping for any kind of input....by the way Bacchus I am a big NIN fan....Pretty Hate Machine was a big part of life in high school, kind of disappointed in the Fragile but oh well.....there will always be U2

The Wanderer

that was a heavy mother

thanks for sharing EV

EdgeVox

which one? the heavy mother, which one is the best the last one I wrote to my girlfriend

EdgeVox

my tears are my currency
my sins are my words
there's no turning back,
if you've hit bottom

I begged you to redeem me,
you fumbled for the right thing to say
I've got nothing left to say to you now
the fuck-ups speak for themselves
if you could color the space between us,
it would be grey

you'll be dead soon
and I'll be left with nothing but daydreams
you shouldn't have crossed me
now you lie in your grave
I seeked closure you spit in my face

things could've been different
you could've seen them my way
you stubborn fuck
you've ruined everything now

EdgeVox

this is all I could think of...finish it some other time...damn you insomnia...thought of it as a johnny cash type song....like the first line

Lover, let me lead you astray
I know you'll deny this someday
that you wronged the world by my side
to fill up the hole inside
I talk of revolution you talked of your mother,
I had no choice but kill your brother

foray

it'd be interesting if it said, "my tears are *your* currency"

but that is just me.

foray

EdgeVox

You've always thought you were better than me
Don't you know it's not a race
You'll never weigh me down
You'll never beat me down
You'll never make me one of you
the legion of the mediocre
Conformity comes easy,
when the dollar's at stake
It's hard to tell y'all apart
It's hard to feel sorry
knowing your emotions are fake
Do your fucking worst,
rather be a martyr than a machine